My inner thoughts

It had been ages since I last blogged. Now, I realized a weird habit of mine, where I will always find something else to do when I should be concentrating in doing my stuff. Previously, I was busy with my final year project when I started my new blog. And for now, I SHOULD be preparing for my last 2 finals papers. But then, the mood to blog resurfaces after zillion years.

I realized that friends around me started to find their other half, which I am definitely happy for them. And, if I say it doesn’t make me feel a thing (the impulse to be in a relationship, etc…), then I would be lying. Yup, you see it correctly. I am not in any relationship at the time being. Wonder why I am writing all this stuff? Well, I have been bottling my feelings all of the time. And I think it’s time for me to release them out and I presume that blogging it out will be the best way, since jotting it down in a diary is not something for me.

Anyway, a phone call from a close friend earlier on, made me start to ponder. It has been sometime that we chatted about our personal life, our ex-es, and so forth. Just now he told me that he thinks I would prefer going out with someone smart, outgoing, fun-loving and etc. Maybe he’s right, in a way, in general. But I told him I won’t be surprised that I remained unmarried rest of my life. By then, I will be an old spinster. Sigh… Sometimes I really wonder if I get to meet MY other half, with the falling in love feel and the sparks.

Actually, down with flu right now is the catalyst for all this thoughts. As I don’t have any medicine here, I thought of getting them from the minimart downstairs. But as now is the finals period, the minimart, which is operated by the fellow students, isn’t open. Then, thought of going down the hill to buy them, but isn’t it purely pathetic for me, someone who is sick, to go downhill to get the medicine for MYSELF? I rather continue having flu then. Partially is lazy la… =) But I have my own ego too. I know, if I asked for help from the guy I mentioned earlier on, he’ll definitely buy and bring the medicine to me, as he ferried my roommate to the clinic when she’s sick.

Whatsoever, hopefully there will be someone who asks me and my roommate out for lunch/dinner. Then, I get to buy the long awaited medicine.